REST IN PEACE

I went through a snow storm to walk by his side, he couldn’t even walk through the rain. He had an internal battle with himself. See I understand he was still hurt by what people did to him. I get it. But he ended up choosing the destructive path instead of the right one. He could have forgiven them, and not taken it so personally. Forgiveness is taking the knife out of your own back and not using it to hurt anyone else, no matter how bad they’ve hurt you. But he chose to do the same thing to me as others did to him. So tell me again, AC, what did you mean to do? Use me to get back at people, or hurt me because you couldn’t hurt the intended? Because it felt like a little bit of both. Like you couldn’t really decide. People always end up ruining good things for other people, and I’m sorry that he that went through a lot that he felt the need to go down the same path as they did and hurt me. I should stop making excuses for his actions. He made a conscious choice to hurt me. People make the choice to hurt others. They choose destructiveness over love. I don’t get why people get a kick out of hurting others. I don’t quite understand it some days. It’s like they want to love you, but they don’t understand how to love themselves, so they do something so stupidly to jeopardize a person’s love. Even through the pain, I chose to listen to my heart, because I loved him. But he, he chose to listen to his brain, because his heart had overflown with hate. He spoke of love but there was hatred in his actions, he spoke of love and yet all I heard was pain. He spoke of love until I stopped listening to what turned out to be a lie in the form of everything I wanted to hear. That’s the story of the boy who cried love. May his hatred become a shovel that digs his own grave. I hope he rests in peace with all the hateful words he has spewed.